It's been a while...

It's been a good long while since I last posted anything here, but not much has really happened in the meantime. Aside from moving to Swansea and (eventually) finding a job washing pots, I've done nothing constructive at all. Oh, I quit the pot-wash job after somehow managing to do it for 11 months; I couldn't bring myself to work there for an entire year. This leaves me with the same conundrum that I had the last time I posted...I need work and have no idea how to get any. Or rather, I do have lots of ideas on what I could potentially do, but don't know which ones to follow up first. I do have one advantage over my previous position, inasmuch as I've got some money this time, so paying for a training course isn't out of the question. The problem is that I no longer wish to be a chef. I've worked in a kitchen and watched chefs at work, even done a little bit myself and have come to the conclusion that I would rather leave my culinary skills at home. This means that all my ideas before about following that ambition have swirled nicely down the drain in a pretty pattern.

Where does this leave me? It leaves me dog-sitting at my parents because they think I have nothing better to do with my time than be stranded in the arse-end of Carmarthenshire. Not only that but I have my sister practically begging me to go to Holland with her in a couple of weeks after helping her move into her new flat, despite knowing that I have no reliable or easy way to get from Carmarthen to Hertford. I'd like to go back to Holland (it has been a couple of years), but I really don't have the time (especially given the past two weeks having been wasted) and I'm not sure if I can drum up the effort for it. On eof the most frustrating things about being unemployed is not having very little money, it's not the uncertainty of ever finding a job, but it's the assumptions that other people make about what you do with your time. Sure, you don't get up and do something constructive every day, but every day someone pulls you away from your normal routine to "help them out" is a day that you are definitely not doing something constructive towards your own needs! This pisses me off, especially when those same people constantly badger you with really unhelpful suggestions that you can't follow up on because you're always doing them a favour. Sigh.

Anyways, the latest plan of action (if it can be called that) is to see about finding work (again) and going back to college to re-do my Maths A-Level and get a decent grade. Following that, the plan is to hopefully return to University as a mature Student and study Philosophy and Maths, possibly followed up by a PhD. and/or PGCE and look into going into teaching. I'd be good at being many things, but I think I'd excel at being a teacher; I've the patience of a brick and a couldn't care less if someone isn't willing to let me help them help themselves...they say teaching is a stressful job but stress falls off me like water off the proverbial duck. It's a long term plan and it ends with me having a bunch of qualifications as well as a bunch of experience in service industry jobs. That's got to be better than just the service industry experience, right?

Had a visit from Ellie the other day and she suggested working the oil rigs in Siberia like she did a few years back. I could do that, but would they employ me? I've no experience in engineering or similar and the closest I have to a qualification in the field is my rather poorly graded Maths and Physics A-levels. It's a thought though. At least it wold get me out of the country for a while...learn a new language...meet some new people...earn some significant money (for a change)...sounds pretty good on paper, but is it ever going to happen? I doubt it.